Dear Weed,
Smoking you an hour or two before bed has yielded me the most fulfilling sleep I've experienced in quite some time. I'm not used to waking up at 8, rested and alert. At first, the sensation was alarming. I had so many questions and was sure there was no way I would make it through the day on a measly six hours of sleep. I scoffed at the idea that I could function without at least eight, preferably 10 to 12, hours of sleep. I'm not going to make a habit of sleeping less than 8 hours, but I was surprised to still be sharp well into the evening.
Imagine that: no pills, no concoctions, not a 12 pack or half a fifth of liquor, not five cigarettes and some herbal tea. A spliff or two and I slept through the night without waking up to a point where I was inside myself again and had to start all over to try to fall asleep. I wanted to ask you if that's what most people feel like when they wake up. Part of me is still amazed. I know the more I use you, the more tolerant my brain chemistry will be and I'll probably have to up the intake little by little to hunt down and capture that elusive deep rest. I don't mind.
The sensation reminds me of when we use alcohol to escape the present's grim realities and the past's ghosts that simply will not die and you wake up 3 days after a bender and realize the hangover has finally cleared and you can actually remember anew what it feels like to not be hungover. So many days in a row, it becomes normal and what should be normal is a shock to the system. The body's biochemistry is a frustrating, fine, machine.
Thanks for helping me sleep inside all of its damned moving parts for a few hours. I couldn't do it without you.
ever yours,
SmokeyDokey
Smoking you an hour or two before bed has yielded me the most fulfilling sleep I've experienced in quite some time. I'm not used to waking up at 8, rested and alert. At first, the sensation was alarming. I had so many questions and was sure there was no way I would make it through the day on a measly six hours of sleep. I scoffed at the idea that I could function without at least eight, preferably 10 to 12, hours of sleep. I'm not going to make a habit of sleeping less than 8 hours, but I was surprised to still be sharp well into the evening.
Imagine that: no pills, no concoctions, not a 12 pack or half a fifth of liquor, not five cigarettes and some herbal tea. A spliff or two and I slept through the night without waking up to a point where I was inside myself again and had to start all over to try to fall asleep. I wanted to ask you if that's what most people feel like when they wake up. Part of me is still amazed. I know the more I use you, the more tolerant my brain chemistry will be and I'll probably have to up the intake little by little to hunt down and capture that elusive deep rest. I don't mind.
The sensation reminds me of when we use alcohol to escape the present's grim realities and the past's ghosts that simply will not die and you wake up 3 days after a bender and realize the hangover has finally cleared and you can actually remember anew what it feels like to not be hungover. So many days in a row, it becomes normal and what should be normal is a shock to the system. The body's biochemistry is a frustrating, fine, machine.
Thanks for helping me sleep inside all of its damned moving parts for a few hours. I couldn't do it without you.
ever yours,
SmokeyDokey
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