AUTHOR.CALHO: If I didn't write it, I would be hitch hiking cross country to Maine and then Alaska in that order. While taking frequent breaks to spread leaflets. And sit in diners. And write on things because I wasn't at a computer. I may still do that in a few years. Writing this also helps me forget about and better understand the limitations of being human, and keeps me busy enough to allow me no free time to burn the world down.

THEMATIC.ABOUT : Collapse often. The things that hold people together and hold them apart and scatter brains. The things that make thoughts go boom. The things that ooh and aah and [expletive deleted]. Sometimes poking around the margins where responsibility ends and the only one to look to is the Original Equipment Manufacturer and say "but, I already pressed 9 for more options and the menus are exactly the same. Can you just replace it?" The answer will be: "please hold." Sometimes hanging out in dark corners. Sometimes following the train tracks. Looking for ways out and ways in and all the while sharing the things seen and heard and done and drawn and written and scorched and healed and teased and caged and dreamed along the way.

7/25/09

fuck the news

Subject : fuck the news
Posted Date: : Jul 25, 2009 2:42 PM
the news sucks. ihate watching it. i hate all the networks. i hate all the spins. i hate that i rarely ever get to hear about anything even remotely important. and i hate that its now more or less a source of entertainment, product placement, and spectacle more than it is a source of information, reliable or not. its something to tell you how to think and feel. and it does it with arguments and commentary that wouldnt stand up in a highschool logic and proofs class if people even went that far in high school, let alone college.

watching the news is like a recieving a daily reminder about just how fucking dumb the majority of americans are. which kind of reminds me of something i thought about near the end of a drug policy class. the conclusion was that the war on drugs was an unsustainable war that is not even close to fighting the real source of the drug problem, if you can even call it that. america is a country of wars. we need wars to dominate everyone else and to flex our will on them, but the only sustainable war, in a country that has thrived on war decade after decade, the only war worth fighting that will take care of so many problems that lead to desert storm part 2 in the first place, the only war to potentially end all wars is a war fought against ignorance.

if people werent so god damn stupid and complacent and fucking misguided there wouldnt be unions, we wouldnt need them, classism would fucking die out because it had to, legislation would be reasonable, people would care about public policy, american cars wouldnt suck dicks and would be worth more than the CHILTON manuals printed about them, fossil fuels wouldnt be a crisis, renewalable energy would be a lot more than a pipe dream, the banks wouldnt have gotten so far gone, gore would have been elected, bush wouldnt have been elected twice, a bill wouldnt have passed making it okay to bring guns into bars, all university would be free, homes wouldnt be built ten feet away from hurricane swells, infrastructure would be stable and able to grow, wal mart would be gone, america wouldnt be an exclusionist state, global warming would be under control, 1 percent of the people wouldnt have 50 percent of the wealth, healthcare would be available for everyone, cigarettes would go away, stupid drug laws would never happen, you'd have to be older than 16 to drive, and younger than 21 to drink, politics wouldnt be nebulous, school would teach you how to learn and grow, prison would reform instead of being a self serving industry, campaigning wouldnt mean pandering, the best man would usually win, the f22 would be out of production years ago, we wouldnt be in a consumer/debt driven society, outsourcing would be non-existant, religion wouldnt be law, the free market would be a myth, job security would be real, a life of excess would be considered abhorrent instead of the ultimate goal to work toward, celebrity would shrivel up and die like the wretched pox on humanity it is, tv would be worth watching, homelessness would be a choice, joining the military wouldnt be the only way out of a dead end life, people would be upwardly mobile, stories of courage would be exclusive of any tv or film personality or lifestyle choice, rags to riches stories would never be told, athletes would not command more money than the president, and corn wouldnt be fucking subsidized.

but the news reminds us every day that america is a pretty fucking ignorant place populated and run by sheep with expense accounts and a desire to someday own an escalade and a helicopter and a house so big the electric bill alone would swallow a low class persons monthly paycheck whole with a pool big enough to provide enough water for a small town to drink and a lawn as green as the sky is blue all located in the middle of the fucking driest climate possible with a gate hardy enough and security force reckless enough to keep out the god damn huns and lurking have nots. cuz what is stupidity and excess without that wonderfully american "they said it couldnt be done so i did it" spirit.

fuck the news. i dont need to be reminded.

///lily allen - ldn: because sometimes things get so rediculously sour that all you can really do is smile about it. the scale of disdain only extends so far. and sometimes things are so black they can only be described in shades of white.

7/12/09

Track List 11 months... 12 days... 12 hours... 31 minutes... 16 seconds 07/12/09

Subject : Track List 11 months... 12 days... 12 hours... 31 minutes... 16 seconds
Posted Date: : Jul 12, 2009 8:21 AM


remember that track list i didnt make last year. i do. ive missed you. so here it is. what better time than right before the sun bakes us back into clay.

hooligan - hear me now
sarah mclachlan - black [william orbit mix]
method man - tical
dj acucrack - asphalt heart sounds
four tet - aphex twin untitled [remix]
amorphous androgynous - marylebone road
four tet - glue of the world
amorphous androgynous - goodbye sky
orb - s.a.l.t.
four tet - unspoken
orb - passing of time
talvin singh - ok
aesop rock - fun for the whole family
orbital - way out
five deez - when the silence is gone
dj acucrack - slowly regaining consciousness
dj acucrack - thalidomide
dj acucrack - wickerman
radiohead - kid a
radiohead - the national anthem
justice - the party
el-p - poisenville kids no wins/reprise
orbital - adnan's
dj acucrack - wickerman
yoko kanno - go DA DA
Ghost In The Shell 2 Innocence - in a new world gods will descend
yeah yeah yeahs - y control
yeah yeah yeah - modern romance
fsol - through your gills i breathe
will johnstone - black spot
orbital - waving not drowning
dntel - dumb luck
dntel - roll on
cleveland lounge - drowning (joshua ryan mix)
frankie valli & the four seasons - beggin' (pilooski 12 inch)
electric skychurch - deus
gus gus - barry
koushik - none in mind
four tet - my angel rocks back and forth
lush - undertow
el-p - dear sirs
kings of leon - closer
devotchka - how it ends
beck - jackass
four tet - slowjam
four tet - [skttrbrain remix]
thom yorke - analyse
aim - fall break
alive & d.d. klein - alive
unkle - rabbit in your headlights
camu tao - plot for a little
aphex twin - xtal
amont tobin ft mc decimal - verbal
kmfdm - down and out
team sleep - ataraxia
evol intent - 530 pm
ashtar command - into dust
collective efforts - growth part 2
portishead - humming
junkie xl - saturday teenage kick
nightmares on wax - the sweetest
school of seven bells - chain
diplo - summer's gonna hurt you
junkie xl - mad pursuit
yeah yeah yeahs - modern romance
el-p - tuned mass damper
mathew herbert - the audience
el-p - tasmanian pain coaster
way out west - the fall
grizzly bear - easier
the cardigans - iron man
orbital - one perfect sunrise
the chemical brothers - chico's groove
kmfdm - anarchy
the notwist - one step inside doesnt mean you understand
rjd2 - true confessions
the black angels - young men dead
juno reactor - pistolero
the chemical brothers - one too many mornings
steve miller - swing town
method man - method man
martina topley-bird - lying
unkle - battle [remix]
luke slater - stars and heroes
led zepplin - when the levee breaks
rjd2 - the horror
psyche origami - dead right
death in vegas - girls [scorpio rising reprise]
the clash - straight to hell
the chemical brothers - pioneer skies
death in vegas - hands around my throat [adult mix]
mylo - drop the pressure
todd terry - let it ride
god lives under water - from your mouth
prodigy - diesel power
psyche origami - the standard
orange range - ambienta
school of seven bells - face to face on high places
the beta band - pure for
tom vek - nothing but green lights
tricky - ponderosa

not necessarily to be consumed in that order. ive been busy... how about you? well i cant really blame you. i finished school... finally... more about that later... in fact.... more about everything later

///bjork - undo when im flat on my face in a gutter, drowning in two inches of rain washed filth at 3am, few things pull me back to reality like the power of her vocal range. there will never be another voice as muscular and serpentine and graceful