AUTHOR.CALHO: If I didn't write it, I would be hitch hiking cross country to Maine and then Alaska in that order. While taking frequent breaks to spread leaflets. And sit in diners. And write on things because I wasn't at a computer. I may still do that in a few years. Writing this also helps me forget about and better understand the limitations of being human, and keeps me busy enough to allow me no free time to burn the world down.

THEMATIC.ABOUT : Collapse often. The things that hold people together and hold them apart and scatter brains. The things that make thoughts go boom. The things that ooh and aah and [expletive deleted]. Sometimes poking around the margins where responsibility ends and the only one to look to is the Original Equipment Manufacturer and say "but, I already pressed 9 for more options and the menus are exactly the same. Can you just replace it?" The answer will be: "please hold." Sometimes hanging out in dark corners. Sometimes following the train tracks. Looking for ways out and ways in and all the while sharing the things seen and heard and done and drawn and written and scorched and healed and teased and caged and dreamed along the way.

11/20/11

Note Dump

Finally got all the notes off of the old phone. It took me two days. Proprietary technologies.

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147 over 72
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12106 woodmore rd bowie 20721
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4345 andover terrace
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828 north ave
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Steve martin banjo
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Forbes to shady to bartlet just past darlington make a right and follow to panther hollow which turns into blvd to bates and left on 2nd and right on hot metal and left on water to 3830
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Im gonna shove this roll of parchment paper so far up your ass youll be baking cookies until christmas
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Whats he doing
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Dogging sunrise
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I bit my lip and it tasted like summer
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Everyone out to make what may be a first impression or maybe make up for weekend bullshit
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You think thats how it works? That we all grow up and we're suddenly friends now that i have the physical tools to take you apart the way i wanted to when i was smaller
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Plant a fist and see if a man grows
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It aint a limmerick and i aint irish
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Do the towel boys get rings too
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Empire of the god head
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She is a cheerleader
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Album titles
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Dumby rounds still hurt
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Youre not the last person ill love but you are the last person ill change my life for and thats why ill never be able to forget
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Dear god just dont let me die sober
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So much teenage poetry on tap
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Waiting to say something significant in pace and caught in the sliding revolving door of waiting for something significant to say
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Gayer than a sunbeam alighting on the arch of a rainbow pouring into a daffodil
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The clarity of 25 years of age
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Buying the things made cheap enough for you to buy because they slashed your income so low that you cant buy anything else
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The thing that feels untouchable walking home with your pants stained with dust from linoleum and not the dirt of real work and all youve done is serve for the least amount of money allowable by law for a company that wont allow you more than one work shirt beaten down and it wouldnt be so bad so shameful and shaming if you didnt have to know your spirit and candor was just as bruised as your knees
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Condom pocket on the sleeve
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Your pockets are retardedly small wtf
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Fuck you, thats some seriously personal shit but thanks for making it awkward enough to bear sympathy
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Ive finally grown into my nose
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Your fake nails are coming off
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I know my coat smells like it hasnt been washed since there were last leaves on the trees. I havent had money for detergent this week so ts.
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Trying to have sex with her and hearing her friend is dead fallen from a bridge in a suicide and the gory details and how they brought her food but did not call the police
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Career links on ardmoore off of penn ave
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Prime and paint
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Learn how to install glass block
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Fishermans friend. Buying ridiculous shit with food stamps instead of block and tackle
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Manson
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A man is fed alcohol and then sent on the road to rescue someone
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The only thing he can create with any conviction is an opinion which is not without its value but he is no artisan creator or imaginative talent
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The countervail
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Crush groove origin of def jam
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All the mess and fuss of exploding you by centimeters at the point of a box cutter
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Peacocks and their hand bags that could service pricks tighter than their own sagging resonalities and broke gate hinged hips on knee knobs turned pin headed with starvation
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A picture i should know little and littler men picking up smaller and smaller stones into infinity
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Its just you me the stars above and the hands of god in hell
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The entire planet goes online its a hollow antenna like entering a water bubble in space one billion dead links and one active
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The width of failures universe
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Whoever described to me the weight
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Zip cups
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Its like kicking a retarded kid in the face
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Once in a life time events
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Dodge beer
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You are as american as humus
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Youre a fifteen comment post
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Youre ruining the joke and its 15 years old
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Posted up on the block like a mailbox munoz
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Bug awareness resistance education
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Always be commenting
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He can build the shit out of a bookshelf
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Trailer park boys
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Feral cognition
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The sex was a watch makers dream.
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Just my fists and what's left of my wits
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Words to be permanently stricken from the r and b dictionary
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Lyrics for appearances sake
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Don't ask for rock stars if you what you really want is nerds with extensive internship experience and a clean history and possibly several years as a summer camp counselor
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The part doesn't haunt
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The simultaneous deletion and write of memory
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Hell in high places
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Jimmy scaleea. Prison coke dealer and turns out a nice guy if you ever got to know him
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The pieces you left inside of me would be proud of the little hurts and winces and inward breaths tap dancing in my footsteps
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The bones in my feet are harder than they've ever been. A set of callouses to match working hands and tired fingers
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There are no fantastically sexy terms for not doing drugs
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Rubbing sleep from eyes that have not
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Going back to campus in my work clothes
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They've taken their shoes off. They've torn their coats.
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Zodiac tesselation
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That sounds extremely egocriminal of you
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Like trying to guess how long you've been walking based on the time when you walk by my widow
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Come hang out in aisle 3
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No one will get in the way of what i feel for you. And i will be a mother fucker if you think that doesn't include you.
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Hamburger helper the bacon mix tapes
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A dream of time travel into a future where i lived on the second floor of a home and scrawled in charcoal on the wooden porch planks.
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When i ask for my blade you will present i sufficiently and you will, brandishing it at the sword smith.
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A402
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Bake it so
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In the immortal words of hans gruber: hit it again.
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Dish Towel laundry horse tweezers dish rack? Chalk!
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7008 fax suffix
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If you cure cancer you can cause aids
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Of
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And for that matter is this bitch calling me a dumb townie like if i foot have the cash for a cab ride from where i was to where im going i just don't deserve to travel at all dumb cunt. You know nothing of where i've been or where i'm going and deserve in yous criticism nothing less than branding
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Is it a felony to strangle someone in self defense. Is it possible to strangle someone in self defense i suppose that's getting into the stun kill territory isn't it. I think it is. The threat would have to be so grave or of a nature so intense that the only solution was the death of the attacker but how can a situation like that arise with the kind of marching inevitability that would force an action like that
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Shut up cunt no one cares if my back pack bumps into your body. Grow a presence and it wont matter if people notice you or not you fucking stupid woman
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A bad thing? Perhaps, but i believe good sir i may be too drunk to care at this juncture but we'll see how we assess things at the next juncture
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I believe in the pursuit of function and form i've erred on the side of homeless folks
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Its not about documenting human experience as much as it matters that its the first or close to a first time common experience or even perhaps common thought is being committed to paper and that is part of what makes the cannon more than relevant but very much important
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A lickist
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34th st get off walk west or south to 31st. Walk west to 9th st. There is no 32nd street if you're in the right place.
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And a normalness confirmed and evinced in its very utterance
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Chicken bone lye
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Halide projector
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To elizer its always great to see you
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Budget banger
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There was a fascination with end points. With segmentation.
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Does that make me a sociopath or a computer?
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Every permutation has a theory but the problem becomes akin to the several string theories
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Violent for creations sake
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Studying each interaction and assimilating and modifying behaviors until each interaction is perfectly human and utterly normal
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An adhoc network of words. Segmented thought that is in every way more complete and encompassing than any grammatical capsule
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Even the soot nastied sand of a dulled beach has something enough to beg an occassion for visitation
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I guess its just funny that people talk about yin and yang but we're really just yin and yin
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I am not a healer im a destroyer in the ranks of entropy and her hench
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Every person is worth having sex with for reasons yet discovered
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Sense dulling road glare. Smoking cigarettes
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Martians in the 50s. Only land in smart places of states. Unaffected. Homeless coworker at grocery store lives in a wrecking yard where i'm rebuilding a panel station wagon. I borrow his hats sometimes. He sleeps over. Wake up in the night to smoke. See the blonde neighbor. Is she a robot. Windy night. See a martian in a mirror at a dark window. Pretend to be dumb and sleep unaffected. Mother is with a friend studying television like a text book. They never did that before
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You see the beginning and don't care how it ends. You send the end and foot care how it began. You see the middle and think man that was wierd
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A man who can see the near future except for what is within his reach to affect or within a certain mile radius of him. He has no friends.
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Sympathy for the treble
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Microwavable crazy glue. Gives off fumes that will kill you
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Drometheus
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The dog star
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Great moments. Time left on the microwave. Wtf. Oh yeah it was me. Because this is my place. And that is my microwave. And this is where i live.
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Birds trying to shake the meat of the bread free
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So much pet food
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Screaming toward a hard fault and dead channels. A red dot reset in the silence of failure and shreds of shattered voices
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A modern day masculine eunuchcowboy homo
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A fixed number of orgasms achievable through opposing sexual relationships at which point you switch
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High country a boy in his dream land
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It came from the high country
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Brick top a growing conspiracy of sounds and voices
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A guilt of sound
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A mouth to mouth infection of sound
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Soap doesnt come in flavors, neither does chef boyardee but i do.
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Spring overture of food friends and drink
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Shrubbery of words and poetry
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Money doesnt buy happiness. Just look at the tax system and the problems people articulate with it. Im just as happy or miserable as him why should i pay more
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Squinting at mulholland drive
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A look to his eye the kind of look you only need to see from a dog once to know it just aint right in the head and aint never gonna be right
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Four piece knock out chicken leg wing thigh and biscuit.
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Start a group gay so i cant hang out with attractive guys? Is it not like hanging out with hot chicks except more awesome? How often do you bang the hot chicks you like to be around
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Just because in gay does not mean hue secretly been in love with you
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The grossness of exception destroys personality at both ends of the spectrum
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Ugly people are nasty first and nice second but they can and are assholes just as often as nice looking people
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Clemency of ones and zeros
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While i am thrilled that you aint sacred of no man woman child or beast could you please shut the fuck up. I mean that as politely as possible. You and your man
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Sedentary complexion
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Shatter your cheek bone and snap the bridge of your nose free clear of your face like a finger nail snapped pried loose with dull pocket knife
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Cabbababababbcabacbabacbabi
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Butter sweet symphony
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You're singing to yourself while you masterbate
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Solving problems one iteration at a time
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Pop a pill yeah.
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Tickle your mouses belly while it uprocks to wake your compy
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How awesome is it to type highly into a phone using auto complete
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Im glad i didnt have nigger in my t9
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How often i hear nigger blaring on radios in cars outside my window
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Students of math and science quantum study work students of literature and human considerations a confluence a continuity of thought as requirement rule not exception differences in study methods and success rates dictated by subject matter the nature of the matter being studied the continuity of human experience comprehensible only in continuous immersion unlike the stagger stepped quantum accruiesssence of number based segmented and interchangeable highly interchangeable knowledge compartmentalized versus nonlinear landscape fractal persuits
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Fried chicken. It happened.
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That buttery tart pressure on the head of your stomach sliding down your throat like you just sucked on a used band aid
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They tell me things i dont know. The voices
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Birth of a race
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End of a world birth of a race. The fragmented pieces of earth spell a message that states in universal words that everyone should know the world was tested and the universe should now know the survivors as the worthy and strongest beings who succeeded the planet and inherited the galaxy through acts of tremendous selflessness and sacrifice worthy of any species. They realize the earth can't be saved but they can survive if they all separate themselves each one of them being the target of a multi directional world breaking attack
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Pointless piece of status symbol shit
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Rest easy knowing full well your music will never be appropriated by christian lyricists
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Things people would buy with my face on them
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And im thinking about lighting cigarettes one end touched to another like cigarettes and dreams of one night stands i had in college
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I called you 5 times and you never call me back. Left a video message of you putting french fries in a cup of peanut butter and then another of your spread legs and wet pussy. You blonde pink edgy bitch. Your friend brunette eats right. Hates the gross food we like. Chastises me in front of you. What are you doing. Staring at someone i have no business looking at. The cat can talk. Tells me to im to vervo. He smells like sewage. Tells me that vervo have him his idea that got him elected. Why do you keep flipping me off? Do we still have a thing going? Itll ad a seven game series. Ive seen you eat them like that every week. A toy gun in the library shooting water at perverts. Jim is dead. I killed him but no one knows. I was jealous. His body was destroyed after i pushed him into the machines gears. I ignore her calls until italk to the cat. Now i go out of my way to see her.they go to a club and invite me but dont tell me its collared shirts only they dont let me out of the car until they stop to pick up girls though i try to jump off while the car moves.its the second time. I walk home past the college campus i used to call home and see faces that dont remember me. Its frustrating but freeing. I give up on them.
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355 to park avenue make a right on park go to stone street and follow the signs.
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Diminutous
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North and austin farmers market
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Citron
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