AUTHOR.CALHO: If I didn't write it, I would be hitch hiking cross country to Maine and then Alaska in that order. While taking frequent breaks to spread leaflets. And sit in diners. And write on things because I wasn't at a computer. I may still do that in a few years. Writing this also helps me forget about and better understand the limitations of being human, and keeps me busy enough to allow me no free time to burn the world down.

THEMATIC.ABOUT : Collapse often. The things that hold people together and hold them apart and scatter brains. The things that make thoughts go boom. The things that ooh and aah and [expletive deleted]. Sometimes poking around the margins where responsibility ends and the only one to look to is the Original Equipment Manufacturer and say "but, I already pressed 9 for more options and the menus are exactly the same. Can you just replace it?" The answer will be: "please hold." Sometimes hanging out in dark corners. Sometimes following the train tracks. Looking for ways out and ways in and all the while sharing the things seen and heard and done and drawn and written and scorched and healed and teased and caged and dreamed along the way.

2/12/11

Sometimes When You're Feeling It

There are sometimes in life when you know your brain is about to cum and it is such a good and difficult to describe feeling and you're watching all of the things in front of you waiting for one of them to stand above the rest and glow landing light like and your watching and watching the field of little obtainable dreams and every second is a beat in the note of i'm doing this it really is about to happen and ive beenwaiting so longfor this instanttobecomeperfectlyalignedandnowicanfuckingdoanythingiputmymindtointhenextfiveminutes and then it blows and you realize that while you've accomplished nothing a taste of the feeling can, sometimes, be enough to spur further action in a potentially positive way, and a thing so small as that should not be discounted in value or ignored, but should be looked at as a mental exercise whose dividends, when well informed, intentioned, and carried motives are in play, should not be wholly discounted. I think I am okay with that. And then there are some times in life when you completely whiff on an orgasm. And now I have a sad. A happy after tasting sad.


///Mum - "A Little Bit Sometimes"
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